Friday, Jan. 13, 2006
9:52 p.m.
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And you, the unspecified, general, you. Constantly replacing me with the stronger, better, faster. Those who bear such little resemblance to me that I find I'm tearing away at myself, screaming things like, "Why am I so unloveable?" and "I want my fucking book back."
It's not going down easy, tonight. It lingers in the back of my throat and I have to be awake at noon, and I want to keep talking to fool myself into thinking I have something to say to someone who's listening, instead of this pseudo-anonymous lecture to a nonexistant student body.
Is this eloquence yet? Is this grace, is this beauty, is this charity?
I'm donating blood next wednesday. I am right handed, and it is my left arm that's unfit for viewing.
Give me a minute and I'm sure I can make this sound more pretentious.