index | archives | notes Wednesday, Oct. 12, 2011 11:42 p.m. << [ Seeking Gifts ] >> Haven't eaten much since the end. Sunday, it rained down, he didn't think we should be together anymore. I begged, then called my father, then left for my parents' with a trunkful of things. The life we built together, he doesn't want it anymore, the motherfucker. After I tried therapy, tried being better, tried toning down the crazy. Despite being the best relationship he's ever been in, despite the unconditional love, he is gone, and I am doing better than I thought. I am just sad that I can't believe in Santa Clause anymore. Trying hard enough won't always work. You can't do everything, Amanda. You have limitations. << | x | >> whatiscopyright.org