Monday, May. 16, 2005
5:09 p.m.
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I am forgiving, I am the Angel of Mercy incarnate. It's none of my business, but I am dying to know, dying to talk shit so I can turn around and embrace. I know everything because I am the personal psychologist, and I love having knowledge but hate obtaining it. Walking on eggshells that crack and dig into my flesh, vicious, malicious. Glass feels.
"Why does everybody hate me?" and I tell her she's not allowed to die; it's a ground rule, it's like Lemmings. The objective of the game is to keep the lemmings from walking off a cliff or burning to death or breaking their hearts. I am building bridges between them, trying to salvage relationships.
I am the game master, always thinking of myself in terms of the passive observer; power to save the world, but I believe in free will.
I'm running, but I don't know what from.
Save the world on an individual basis first, and then we can worry about the big picture.