Monday, Feb. 21, 2005
10:20 p.m.
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Not even me.
Cutting and drinking are officially back in full effect, and I'm disposing of all rules centered around the two. For example, when I used to only drink on the weekends, now, it's any time I think I can get away with it. When I used to not cut when I had a drama performance coming up, or only at night, now I'm doing that whenever too. I just don't give a fuck anymore.
Things have officially gone past the "it's not worth it to me to save myself and I'm waiting to see if someone else will save me" stage; we've progressed to the "I don't fucking care if anybody at all saves me because not only is it impossible, but it's also a waste of time" stage.
The important thing is to focus on the future.
Everyone needs to just stay the fuck away from me.